So I have been home for about 5 days now. Something like that. It still does not seem quite real. I am having a little trouble plugging back in to life here. I don't have a phone and today is the first day of real Internet access since I got back. Everyone wants to know my plan and where I am going to work or if I am going back and what is next. The truth is....I just don't know. I wish I did. I would tell you. But I don't. I am waiting on the Lord to fill me in. I know I can trust him to do just that. So ....I sit and I wait..wondering but not worrying.
I am missing Uganda and missing my kids. Wondering how everyone there is doing. Are they healthy...are they happy? Are they playing and laughing or is some ugly disease rearing its head. I pray for Renee. She is on her own for a while. I'm gone. Danielle is gone. She is so strong. I don't think I could do it on my own. Well she does have the staff, but still it must feel overwhelming. Be with her Lord.
And another thing....it is COLD here. It is spitting snow and the wind is blowing and that makes me miss Uganda even more!
Hmmm. Reality is a weird thing. I am house sitting today and I look around and I am surrounded by luxury and abundance and my mind drifts to the kids. Not the ones in Renee's, but the ones in the village. Will they eat tonight, or will they go hungry? Will yet another end up at the gate pleading for help? Will the house blow over in the rainstorm tonight? That actually happened the day before I left. The rain and wind came and it came with a vengeance. The rain was coming sideways and as I lay in my warm bed in the guest house, just a few yards away my friend Carol and her family were wet and cold as their house melted ( it was made of mud ) and fell down in the dark of the night. What is happening to them now? How will they live? And there are so many families just like them there in that village. And so many villages like Masese there in Uganda. Oh Lord it is just too much to take some days. I cry out to you and ask you to intervene in their lives. Make you power and love and Mercy known to each of them. May your messengers go and share your love and you sacrifice with them. May they know that regardless of what happens in this world, that you have a better plan. A plan they can be part of. A plan far better than anything we could hope or imagine. They need you Lord. I need you.
May I and the world around me see through your eyes.
